♥ Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Feeling low..
as i was listening to sun's song,"hai shi hui xiang ta".recalls me of someone msging me tat wanna be with someone in church.but that person is with a vow,and cgl approves it,becos of god eventually wans them to be happy.i've been on vow for such a long time,why there's never approval of this relationship?isn't it biblical that one should keep thier vows?whywhywhy..a yr has past;much struggling between us,..i gave up on it eventually.issit tat i cant see blessings?or i cant see the future between us?or issit destined that we cant be tgt?this makes me very puzzled.well,since i already given up on it,i shall not think of it anymore..why in the first place did i make this vow?SO SO SO stupid of me,foolish gal.not regretting anything.problems began between us,i dunno why nobody is by my side,listening to me,why issit so diff to find a listening ear?not even him.it seems tat its all my fault.am i having mood swings?as tears roll down my cheeks,im really at a loss.who would really understand me,things have changed.i tried telling him abt things,but,he just could not understand,easily mixed,easily pissed.i really dunno how to say it out.u just need a listening ear who's willing to listen to my probs.i dunno who could i turn to.really really..i cant turn to others,only to him,but if he really dun understand,there's nothing i could do.people says tat im not sticking to him,im still trying my best, my very best.i could break down any time.help.~
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