♥ Thursday, August 24, 2006
probs solved??
stress up these few days,perhaps im really emotional tired le..well,though its very stressed up by mother and my church,but i'm happy being with him..i know tat he's also very stress,i wanna let him know that,i love him..being persecuted by my mother,'TMD!!BU YAO PAO"..really very xin ku him lei,never been scolded by mother like tat then kena from my mother..poor shortberry.he really give in alot to me,despite not being a christian,he still allows me to go to church..today he first time jus leave like tat,without me knowing,i was thinking 'where is he?'..not even having the appetite to eat our dinner at all..very stress tat my mother given us all these stress..hai..although stress,im really happy being with him,justlooking at him alone makes me smile..missin him everyday of my life..i know we can pull through together de.dont ever let me go,imfallin more and more in love with u as each day passes by..hai,to be honest,im already backsliding le,not lying at all.not giving any excuses to them.well,not because of him,but me myself,i felt tat i spent too much time on church but neglecting my studies,well..i know its my mum who told them to pull me to church to watch over me..i dunno why but i think tat it causes stress to me...why did mummy wans me to go to church?when she knows tat my heart is no longer there or towards god,well,perhaps my heart has already hardened towards god le ba..i still believe god is real and gd all the time.perhaps rebellious period?nope i dun tink so,maybe i need my own time ,own freedom..becos of church alone,i negelected too many things in my life.perhaps im too committed to church le.where studies hasno longer being a major component in my life.cy,zm and short went to my house just now..talking and talking and talking..i hope tat my mother would not be overeacting and be hostile to him.despite all these things going on,i still love him as mush as ever!!!i love u dardar!!=)
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