♥ Friday, December 08, 2006
im a lil depressed.
by wat mae mae has viewed me,
as a stealer?or someone whos smarter than her?
well,i din steal her so called '
impt' money.
stupid,well shes just lk wat arvi said.
a backstabber and she make me phobia of that
darn cashier.
nvr am i gonna touch tat thing again.
she made me disappointed of her.
all i have is to depend on myself for everything.
there's no mountain for me to
lean on,no shoulders for me to
cry on and no listening ears to
hear my rantings.
well.nowadays i think alot,or issit think too much??
really alot alot,but all random things.
i dreamt of many things too,after everyday's 10 hrs of slp.=x
i dreamt tat i went back to church once again,and mich contacted me today.-.-.everything seems to be so zhun,or issit destined lk wat they've said?but i dun have the intention to go back yet.wait till im really really ready and committed.:)
he's in my life for
yrs now,but i din notice tat he's always there with me.always noticing me even in tat small corner.to me,its so near yet so far.i once thought tat he would have given up long ago,but im absolutly wrong wrong wrong.=x.he's still waiting for my reply,waiting for my answer.i realised tat waiting so long wasnt easy,nt easy for me.i dun have tat much patient,he's the one tat i've gt nth to say.it amaze me when i noe tat he's been waiting for me all this while.wat a
darn fool am i.i actually treat it as a joke when he confessed.wat a
bitch am i.but let things go its natural self.i wont reject this and wont accept this till i've gotten this feeling.i musnt try,or it'll be a real disaster and hurting it trying doesnt work.or perhaps i might regret it in the future?somethings just stay on my mind everyday.one guy after one guy,i wonder wats really in his heart,wats was he thinking?wats with the faith,patient and love for him to wait this long?i really wonder wonder and wonder.do i worth this much time?and wats wrong with me,wats wrong with my heart,i would really want to ask.
well,back to work again.i knock onto susant when turnign back,and kinda ended up in his
chest.=x.i really no comments all we did is sry sry sry!!has.i heard alot of stories from my colleages,ayu and seri.well,nice ppl once again,and i've learnt tat arvi's a soft guy,hah,and he managed to make me cry.=x.useless me.hahs.arvi always managed to make me smile before i go hm.and susant an observant and slacking guy.he cant leanr mandrain=xhahs..manager scold also lk relac relac.hahs.wijana's cute.isa is very very handsome,and he has the same bdae as someone else and tat shocked me.(min min you saw him before?he's damn handsome)hahs..and i realised how old iwan was when i looked at his profile(min min are u interested??come bribe me.whahas!).i finally noe nordina as the sabo kia.hahs.i learnt how sarcastic jason was when he scolded susant.and i learnt how mae mae backstabbed others and wat a neat freak she was..i learnt how lazy joseph was.i learnt how commenntative brandon was.basically all these.and i love ayu seri arvi and susant more!:)
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