♥ Wednesday, December 27, 2006
december christmas.
december 23th 06
happy belated bdae to him=)
well,i went to his bdae,with wp and him only.to secret recip.was damn sian,but din show out..totally nth to do nth to say. all i could do is to smile smile and smile without showing any signs tat im actually feeling low..hahs..(hope he dun see this.=x)well,i made a cake which i told him bought this cake,and i din give it to him=x.when i gt home,i gt scolded by sis,hah,for nt giving him this cake and nt showing my thots and feeling.who cares anyway.haha..i ended tearing while eating my cake,my first ever cake did for someone and eating it up myself.i teared becos,i wasted my effort,my $$$,my time,my sleep and i din gave it to him.really nt feeling gd tat day,just a hyprocritical me.(he might forever not noe tat i made the cake and instead of buying the cake=x) anway,happy bade to him lah.
december 24th 06
went to delia's hse overnight.lols.was it really overnight??hahs..cos i slept,too tired liao.was introduced to hua yang shao nian shao nu,lol,a show with handsome dudes.quite cool actually..and watche a horror movie,her sis is cute but delia was damn pek cek with her.hahahahas..can hear her:"siam la!!dion can u go away please?aiya u go slp lah.!"lol..so amused by it..
december 25th 06
after tat overnight,we went shoppin!!at marina square,saw many bds ppl.lol.shoppin till we drop.hahahs..but i was dreaded by this yr's christmas.was actually hoping for a more happier and more happening christmas(im sure everyone too).but this yr's christmas was really really cui..=x
december 26th 06
was happy today,cos..mae mae din speak to me~!whahahahs..was happier when she din talk to me at al..hahs..was sad..cos wahyu quit..she was my best partner over there,without her,i lost this fren who always gossip abt those stupid managers.hahas..she's a gd fren.was happy tat arvi accompany me today..wahahahs..was horrified tat they thot i like iwan..=x..i pengz.now,i phyobia of him liao.i still love my dear wijana..hahahaha..tat ral killer smile tat made me melt!~~~hhahas..lols..i saw chuti today..he came to fetch her sis from usa..wow..hahahs..happy day...
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♥ Friday, December 08, 2006
im a lil depressed.
by wat mae mae has viewed me,
as a stealer?or someone whos smarter than her?
well,i din steal her so called '
impt' money.
stupid,well shes just lk wat arvi said.
a backstabber and she make me phobia of that
darn cashier.
nvr am i gonna touch tat thing again.
she made me disappointed of her.
all i have is to depend on myself for everything.
there's no mountain for me to
lean on,no shoulders for me to
cry on and no listening ears to
hear my rantings.
well.nowadays i think alot,or issit think too much??
really alot alot,but all random things.
i dreamt of many things too,after everyday's 10 hrs of slp.=x
i dreamt tat i went back to church once again,and mich contacted me today.-.-.everything seems to be so zhun,or issit destined lk wat they've said?but i dun have the intention to go back yet.wait till im really really ready and committed.:)
he's in my life for
yrs now,but i din notice tat he's always there with me.always noticing me even in tat small corner.to me,its so near yet so far.i once thought tat he would have given up long ago,but im absolutly wrong wrong wrong.=x.he's still waiting for my reply,waiting for my answer.i realised tat waiting so long wasnt easy,nt easy for me.i dun have tat much patient,he's the one tat i've gt nth to say.it amaze me when i noe tat he's been waiting for me all this while.wat a
darn fool am i.i actually treat it as a joke when he confessed.wat a
bitch am i.but let things go its natural self.i wont reject this and wont accept this till i've gotten this feeling.i musnt try,or it'll be a real disaster and hurting it trying doesnt work.or perhaps i might regret it in the future?somethings just stay on my mind everyday.one guy after one guy,i wonder wats really in his heart,wats was he thinking?wats with the faith,patient and love for him to wait this long?i really wonder wonder and wonder.do i worth this much time?and wats wrong with me,wats wrong with my heart,i would really want to ask.
well,back to work again.i knock onto susant when turnign back,and kinda ended up in his
chest.=x.i really no comments all we did is sry sry sry!!has.i heard alot of stories from my colleages,ayu and seri.well,nice ppl once again,and i've learnt tat arvi's a soft guy,hah,and he managed to make me cry.=x.useless me.hahs.arvi always managed to make me smile before i go hm.and susant an observant and slacking guy.he cant leanr mandrain=xhahs..manager scold also lk relac relac.hahs.wijana's cute.isa is very very handsome,and he has the same bdae as someone else and tat shocked me.(min min you saw him before?he's damn handsome)hahs..and i realised how old iwan was when i looked at his profile(min min are u interested??come bribe me.whahas!).i finally noe nordina as the sabo kia.hahs.i learnt how sarcastic jason was when he scolded susant.and i learnt how mae mae backstabbed others and wat a neat freak she was..i learnt how lazy joseph was.i learnt how commenntative brandon was.basically all these.and i love ayu seri arvi and susant more!:)
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♥ Thursday, December 07, 2006
work work work
im here again.
work work work
slp slp slp
eat eat eat
shit shit shit
com com com
everyday's the same for me now.=x
but im kinda glad tat i still have a work to keep me busy
it kills off my time instead of rotting at home
im sorta having fun over at my workplace.
the ppl there are nice.
esp the guys.
thoughtful,caring,xi xin,fun loving,cheerful.
when im just sniffing(nt even sneezing),
he just suddenly asks me,"u also flu arh?"
well,he's extremely sick.hahs..
its lk he's so observant n i din notice tat i was sniffing
it seems so normal for me to sniff and sneeze.=x
arvi made my day at work.
hahs,ppl actually depression le then still make me cry
and ended up cheering me up.
hahas,we gossip abt those managers,joke abt ppl.
laugh at ppl,sian of demanding customers.
well,thanks everyone.
im so lookin forward to chalet.
im gonna be a crazy frog,havin fun at all time..wahahs
faster come faster come.
hahahs..:)
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