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♥ Monday, March 12, 2007

finished viewing her blog,listening to the sad song.it affects my supposedly cheerful day.i dunno why but i've been having real weird dreams nowadays..all these scenes have darwin.i just cant understand why.-.-am i being under his spell?hah.i long to see him again.i'll have to wait till another season..depression inside of me.i feel like giving up on maths.i know i should.i know i cant do it.i cant stand it when i know i've studied but i still failed that kind of feeling.that kind of feeling when everybody say its such a bloody easy paper and i still can get an f9 for it.done so many questions for math but still fail.where can find this kind of failure?noone can help me anymore.it breaks my heart whenever i see FFF on my paper.i can no longer understand myself anymore.stop wasting ur time on me.i cant bear to see that kind of result on my slip.that high L1R5 i've gt.ms loo must have been so disappointed.mum must have been so disppointed,so is zm.everytime i see that look of him looking at my paper , i hated myself.dint u study he night before?didnt u have countless practices before?why did u still fail???

went out with min just nw.took whole loads of photos.crazy videos too.how i wish i was nota human in the first place.whats my purpose of living?even after leaving church.whats my worth.my life's in grey,neither black nor white.neither happy nor sad.its difficult to understand.i dun like relationships but ambiguity.nobody seem to understand,not even myself.just found out that i din have any talent at all.no figure,brainless, no musictalent.how sad.

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