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♥ Monday, March 12, 2007

finished viewing her blog,listening to the sad song.it affects my supposedly cheerful day.i dunno why but i've been having real weird dreams nowadays..all these scenes have darwin.i just cant understand why.-.-am i being under his spell?hah.i long to see him again.i'll have to wait till another season..depression inside of me.i feel like giving up on maths.i know i should.i know i cant do it.i cant stand it when i know i've studied but i still failed that kind of feeling.that kind of feeling when everybody say its such a bloody easy paper and i still can get an f9 for it.done so many questions for math but still fail.where can find this kind of failure?noone can help me anymore.it breaks my heart whenever i see FFF on my paper.i can no longer understand myself anymore.stop wasting ur time on me.i cant bear to see that kind of result on my slip.that high L1R5 i've gt.ms loo must have been so disappointed.mum must have been so disppointed,so is zm.everytime i see that look of him looking at my paper , i hated myself.dint u study he night before?didnt u have countless practices before?why did u still fail???

went out with min just nw.took whole loads of photos.crazy videos too.how i wish i was nota human in the first place.whats my purpose of living?even after leaving church.whats my worth.my life's in grey,neither black nor white.neither happy nor sad.its difficult to understand.i dun like relationships but ambiguity.nobody seem to understand,not even myself.just found out that i din have any talent at all.no figure,brainless, no musictalent.how sad.

Blogged @ 12:09:00 am

♥ Sunday, March 11, 2007

my mind is so random.though its holiday nw, but i dun feel any excitement about it at all.Tons and tons of homework,wtf.holiday machiam no holiday like that and i dun understand whats that english enrichment course for..!so dreadful to do homework.i wan t a robot who can help me do my work.if george ate the science centre can help, i'll go there everyday to seek help despite the long travelling.muhahah!im leading a weird life right now.slps at 8pm every night,wakes up at 3plus am in the night and do hw till 5am, goes to slp ,wakes up at 6am and goes to sch.-.-what the life is that??!!my heart's like a stone,unmovable.am i being too much?too selfish??i know im running away, far far away.well,everyone's right,i dont deserve this goodness.i just dun wanna face it, not willing.=x argh,my plam hurts!went blading with 4D peeps.all the way fall fall fall..lim keep falling down..the worst thing is u staring at the person falling down but cant help.thats terrible=x.the scratches on my plam is infecting i think, so painful.oh yeah,i've got a new digital cam,cyber shot T10 though not very new,but im so attracted by its colour.thanks sis.=)aiya forget it lah, i'll 'attempt' to do my work.

Blogged @ 3:34:00 pm

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