♥ Wednesday, February 18, 2009
my peaceful blogging life was ruined by malcolm that bastard! cause he gave C my blog, so i had to remove those blog posts regarding CID, it's too embarassing. I really dislike 2009, nothing had turn out well yet. problems just overwhelms and beats me over it.Goh has been my childhood guardian since young whenever mummy's overseas, sis and me grown up with him even though he's in his sixties. he's my second dad. Goh callled mummy a few days ago to inform her that he's gotten lung cancer. she's taken it easy, but extremely difficult for me. as if a precious gem is gonna leave my life again, i teared again.went to visit goh just across the road. before stepping out of the house, i told myself to keep cool.but i teared while i was walking towards his house, the strong wind blew the tears out of my eyes.thought i was strong enough to hold back my tears, but it felt so torturous to force myself. my heart was aching when i saw him aching in his chest, i just felt like giving him a hug.i fell asleep on his sofa while he was talking to mummy, i could feel that he really appreciate our presence.just hope that he'll be without worries and go in peace..i realised he's old when i was looking at his tiny creases along his forehead which i never noticed since young.on the way home, mummy told me" he used to shed tears when you're sick in the middle of the night"..all the more i couldnt stop my tears!he loves me as much as dad does. i love his naggings, this is how he show his love to me.people still have to part, i've got to cherish.
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